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Friday, August 28, 2015

a choice that changes her life forever - Alexa Crushed (Alexa Crushed #1) by T.R. Cupak

Alexa Morgan lost her mother when she was two. At eighteen, her father and stepmother died when a devastating earthquake hit the Bay Area. Only one person has remained a constant in her life: Devin.


Published: May 20th, 2015

Alexa Morgan lost her mother when she was two. At eighteen, her father and stepmother died when a devastating earthquake hit the Bay Area. Only one person has remained a constant in her life: Devin.

Devin has been Alexa’s best friend since childhood. The two are inseparable—or they were until Devin declared his love for her at sixteen. When Alexa can offer him only friendship in return, Devin retreats, brokenhearted.

Alexa, on the other hand, longs for Ethan, the boy next door. Four years older than her, and with an ever-changing roster of girlfriends, Ethan is everything Devin isn’t: wild, sensual, and unpredictable.

In the aftermath of the deadly earthquake, Ethan makes his move on Alexa, who reciprocates in a confused whirl of grief and desire. When Ethan leaves town shortly after, Devin comes back into Alexa’s life, offering support and expecting nothing in return.

Alexa begins to see the advantages of Devin’s quiet, stable love. But just as her feelings for her old friend begin to blossom, Ethan returns. Now Alexa must choose—the perfect boyfriend or the wild, thrilling bad boy. It’s a choice that changes her life forever.

Our best wrong choices 

I will be honest. I wasn’t quite clear on this topic. I’m shooting from the hip and hoping I get it somewhat correct. With that being said, let me get to it. 

Life is built on choices and decisions. We aren’t held accountable for those decisions until we are old enough to understand the consequences, good or bad. I believe the biggest culprit of best wrong choices is love. There are so many gages to love that it doesn’t just mean a love between couples. It can be a parent’s love for their child, a sibling’s love for the other, love for a friend, and the list can go on forever. 

In this post I’m going to focus on the love of a significant other. It’s safe to assume that everyone who is reading this has been in love one time or another in his or her lifetime. I’m going to get very personal here and hope I’m not judged for the candidness. This is something I’ve never talked about and you will see why. I’ve been in the situation where my heart loved two totally different people at the same time because each one gave me something I needed to make me feel complete. Having both men in my life gave me excitement and something different than the typical norm. At that particular stage of my life, they were my best wrong choice and I wanted them both. Just for clarification, no, I did not live with both of them. Each relationship was separate from the other. I didn’t have endless threesomes or anything remotely like that, although that would make for a great story if I did. Anyway, they both knew about each other and we were all in agreement with our situation. As I stated, I never mentioned this and even though my personal life was kept private all good things had to come to an end. We live in a society that tells us we are only allowed to be with one person. It’s unethical and immoral to have multiple companions at the same time, especially if you are a woman. If everyone is in the know and the relationships work then let them continue to blossom. 

Which brings me to my last best wrong choice. Finally giving up that ideal situation led me to my husband. I met my husband shortly after my father passed away. Everything inside me said I wasn’t ready for a new relationship considering I just ended two and lost my father all within a couple of weeks of each other. But going against my best instincts I allowed myself to date and get to know my husband. He is absolutely everything I could want or need. As odd as it will sound, he is those two men combined and then some. We aren’t perfect but we are perfect for each other. Yes, we have ups and downs but that’s life; that’s love; that’s marriage. 

With that all being said I say don’t be afraid to love. Explore different options and don’t be afraid to not be the norm. Who knows, maybe your best wrong choice won’t be just one love.

About the author:
T.R. Cupak was born and raised in the suburbs of a Bay Area city in California. She was the closet nerd who hid her love of reading and writing short stories and poetry when she was younger. Back then it wasn’t considered cool to be into those types of activities for pleasure, whereas today you have TV shows, movies and books that glamourize that being a nerd is actually cool. 

T. lives in a quiet, little, country town south of where she grew up. She is happily married to an amazing man who supports her in everything she does and spoils her rotten. They have a crazy little Shih Tzu named Harley. He's their fur-baby and even though he’s a pain in the arse most days, they love the little guy. She has an obsession with cars, especially fast ones. She enjoys her music louder than anyone should. Admittedly it’s to drown out hearing her own singing voice, or lack thereof. When she’s not at work or busy writing you can find her curled up reading a book on her Kindle with a glass of wine or Dirty Shirley.

T. lost touch with her creative side and stepped off the path of all things written in her early twenties. Six years ago, her passion for reading was rekindled. She began to utilize reading as a way to escape everyday chaos. Late 2013 she began journal writing. After a couple of months of journaling T. realized that this form of writing wasn't keeping her interest nor was it helping her to relax. After that realization settled in she changed the direction of her writing. Her creative aspirations were flowing once again and she happily embraced it. As her fingers started to dance across her keyboard she began to see her fictional characters begin to breathe life. Writing was only supposed to be a way for the new author to relax, but a story was born and T.R. Cupak is excited to be releasing her self-published debut novel, Alexa Crushed.


Stephanie LaPlante said...

I hope I get a chance to read this!

Jan Lee said...

I'd like to read about a woman who has two choices of males. I tend to go with the safe choice but maybe this woman won't ;)

Unknown said...

I'm intrigued by the choices she makes in the aftermath of such tragedy. I look forward to reading it.

Patrick Siu said...

I have enjoyed learning about the book. Thanks for sharing it.